what the...

too much to drink, a few other things in the mix, and suddenly life is... well... manageable. "its never over - my kingdom for a kiss upon her shoulder." jeff buckley makes things okay too. but yeah. "she's the tear that hangs inside my soul forever."

you know the tune.

today i am okay. despite the frustrations and the irritations. it helps to know that it's all situational and very little is chemical or emotional. it helps to know that if i were to go somewhere, anywhere... it would improve. at the very least it would change. and maybe that's all i need, but who knows.

in case you're wondering, these would be the ramblings of an intoxicated someone and it's okay if, tonight, you don't pay attention. we'll see what happens tomorrow. i have plans with someone to go see roller derby. he's young, he's scottish, and he's got a few other, uh, qualities that may or may not determine an early outcome. no need to go into it, but here's hoping he's not as nuts as the last one. that's all i'll say.

i'm hungry.