plots and schemes and plots and stuff.

i decided this morning that i wasn't going to be negative and i wasn't going to let things bother me like they have been. i'm amazed at how well it worked. i still had an attitude problem of sorts, and i still ate way more food than was necessary in an effort to assuage whatever subconscious discomfort i've got going on. but i felt better. it was a welcome respite from the usual bitter self i inhabit at work, so i can't complain.

it might also be helping that i'm considering my options regarding whether or not i'll stay in portland or move on. i have options and they're becoming more and more appealing as the days pass. but i'm taking my time in making any decisions so that they're less likely to be borne of a sad/broken spirit and instead made because they make the most sense. suffice to say, it's all sounding really good on paper; i just need to do some major qa/qc with it before i take it live.