please mister please

i heard this olivia newton john song in walgreen's today and MAN was that a piece of crap. but it didn't kill my love for her from grease and xanadu. she was the best.

it feels as though things are working themselves out in my head a bit. clarity, i think they call it. i'm grateful. i'm still sad, but i think i understand it a bit better. it's normal. who knew?

this week my goals are to make a dentist appointment, a therapist appointment, and a mammogram appointment. i will also research schools HERE IN PORTLAND or online that would jive with my current work schedule, and i will do laundry. next weekend i will donate things to goodwill, take batteries to the recycling center, and maybe go to the unitarian church i found that sounds pretty nice. that's a maybe though. and i will do the leek soup weekend cleanse thing.

i'm not going to use this blog as my online to-do list, don't worry. i just needed to write something, and also needed to get this out of my head so i could stop thinking about it.