it's okay.

i'm still in the midst of trying to figure it all out. not making any knee-jerk decisions. i'm recovering from spending time with my dad for four days and realizing that nothing changed as the result of it. but nothing really needed to. it's up to me at this point. what's done is done, and whatever will be will be. and all that shit.

the weather is changing and my mood is improving - at least when i'm not at work. when i AM at work...well, yeah. that's another story.

in the meantime, i'm looking forward to heading to dc in a few weeks. long distance bootie calls are pretty okay with me. and then my mom will be here for a few days. after she leaves, another friend will be in town (not a bootie call). and then i'll likely try to get to san francisco for the 7/4 weekend. a month after that, puerto rico. in the midst of all of this i have jury duty on monday and have to start school the same day.

it's no wonder i'm having some of the craziest dreams i can remember. t-shaped tools inserted into the heads of penises. making out with my brother. skin popping heroin. that sort of thing. it'll be interesting to see what my brain conjures up tonight.

it must be that scottish boy. or maybe it's the other one. *boggle*